To you my dear I am sorry. I think I have lost you and that you are removing yourself from my life. I have no idea why or what I did other than love you completely. I am so very sorry for whatever it is. I guess I screwed it all up. You even deleted the journal entry that you had posted for me and have removed me completely from your DA site. I am sitting here crying wondering what the hell happened last night after I had to go and why you are suddenly happy and distant. I feel like you hate me or, worse, that you have been lying to me all along.

Suellen. I love you..but if you do not want to be with me...the just SAY IT! I am so depressed right now you have absolutely no idea what you are doing to me emotionally at this point. *sighs* I really love you so much. you are amazing. If I lost you I need to know why.

I love you and miss you so much.....If you ask me to I will leave you alone forever. but I do not want to do that but, for some reason, I think it is what you are going to ask me to do. I don't know why but suddenly I think you hate me....*sighs*

My biggest fear is your email...it didn't even say you love me anymore.

If this is goodbye...just say goodbye.

I love you forever, regardless you will always have a corner of my heart and without you that piece of me will be dead...